I Can't Go Home

is there any honest song to sing besides these blues?

2006-06-02T17:54:17Z

Dear You With the Pretty Face,

I realize you’re going through a lot right now; I just wanted to know if it was me who did anything wrong or anything to hurt you. I know I haven’t known you for a long time, but you seem like a really cool person, and I feel like I’m being “evaded” if you know what I mean. If we don’t talk again, or if you don’t wish to talk to me anymore, that’s ok, I guess…just being the blunt, straightforward thinker that I am, I just want to know what I did so I don’t make that mistake again—with anyone—in the foreseeable future. It was nice knowing you for the time that I knew you, and this rejection sucks, but I will go on walking forward through life with a brave face, so you don’t have to worry about me. =) Dude, this is turning into a rant. Anyway, I hope things get better with your brother/family, I’m really sorry what happened.

Get better dammit,
~Reina

diamond_life @ 2005-12-16T14:09:00

2005-12-16T19:48:08Z

Take the first sentence from the first post of each month of 2005. That's your year in review.

January-ness: My father says I should major in English.

Febrrruuary: OMFG. HE'S IN THE SCHOOL BUILDING. I WAS WALKING PAST AND I SAW HIM--NO HALLUCINATION--IT WAS DEFINITELY HIM.

MarchMarchMarch: Tell me this isn't the most ridiculous thing you've ever heard of. (The link doesn't work, btw.)

Appreel:
Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and
often try to figure out the meaning of life,
why we are all here etc. You may not be so
social, and often think twice before acting but
those thoughts you have in your mind never stop
flowing in. Sometimes you can be so
concentrated you forget about other things that
you have to do. Don't change, this world needs
deep people.

What dark word represents you? (anime pics and 7 outcomes)
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MayDay: This is absolutely the sweetest song ever.

June: Does anyone have a suggestion for a song I could put on my LJ?

July: NONE! *gasp*

August: And so, I graduated.

September: Last week was probably the worst week of my life.

October: Oh wow, this is really funny.

November: New layout.

December: All right, I should inform my friendslist now that my days online are numbered one way or another...that means no LJ for a while.

Annnnd that's it...A Year in the Life of diamond_life. See you guys when I see you. I'm going to miss you a LOT. *hugs*

PS: AND DON'T UNADD ME DAMMIT! lolz.

SIGN MY ELJAY YEARBOOK

2005-06-16T11:18:03Z

Graduation's next Wednesday...

So this is the last time I'll probably update until September.

Comment to say goodbye. ='(

PS:

I am bisexual or homosexual.
I've consumed alcohol.*
I've run away from home.
I have lied to my parents about where I am.*
I don't like Bush because he is dumb.*
I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.*
I am for Bush.
I listen to political music.*
I collect comic books.
I am shorter then 5'5.
I think I'm ugly, even sometimes.*
I shut others out when I'm depressed.*
I open up to others easily.
I am keeping a secret from the world.*
I watch the news.*
I own over 5 rap CDs.
I own an iPod or MP3.
I own multiple designer purses, causting over $100 a piece.
I own something from Hot Topic.*
I own something from Pac Sun.
I own something from The Gap.
I own something I got on e-bay.
I love Disney Movies.
I am a sucker for hair/eyes.*
I don't kill bugs.*
I curse regularly.*
I paid for that cell phone ring.
I am a sports fanatic.
I have "x"s in my screen name.
I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.*
I love Spam (the FOOD).
I bake well.*
I would wear pajamas to school.*
I own something from Abercrombie.
I have a job.
I love Martha Stewart.
I am in love with love.*
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
I am self conscious.*
I like to laugh.*
I smoke a pack a day.
I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.*
I loved Go Ask Alice.
I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
I can't swallow pills.
I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.*
I eat fast food weekly.
I have many scars.*
I believe in ghosts.*
I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
I am really ticklish.*
I see a therapist.
Take anti-depressants.
I love white chocolate.*
I bite my nails.
I am comfortable with being me.*
I play video games.
I'm single.*
I'm in a relationship.
I'M MARRIED.
Gotten lost in your city.
Saw a shooting star.
Wished on a shooting star.
Saw a meteor shower.*
I Had a serious Surgery.
Gone out in public in your pajamas.
I have Kissed a Stranger.
Hugged a stranger.*
Been in a fist fight.
Been arrested.
Laughed and had milk/or another drink come out of your nose.
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
Made out in an elevator.
Swore at your parents.*
Kicked a guy where it hurts.*
Been close to love.*
Been to a casino.
Been skydiving.
Broken a bone.
Skipped school.*
Saw a therapist.*
Played spin the bottle.
Gotten stitches.
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
Bitten someone.*
Been to Niagara Falls.
Gotten the chicken pox.*
Kissed a member of the same sex.
Crashed into a friend's car.
Been to Japan.
Ridden in a taxi.
Shoplifted.*
Been fired.
Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex.*
Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back.*
Stole something from your job.
Gone on a blind date.
Lied to a friend.*
Had a crush on a teacher.*
Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
Been to Europe.
Slept with a co-worker.
Been married.
Gotten divorced.
Had children.
Saw someone dying.*
Been to Africa.
Driven over 400 miles in one day.
Been to Canada.
Been to Mexico.
Been on a plane.*
Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.*
Thrown up in a bar.
Eaten Sushi.*
Been snowboarding.
Been Skiing.
Met someone in person from the internet.*
Been to a moto cross show.
Lost a child.*
Gone to college.
Graduated college.
Done hard drugs.
Taken painkillers.*
Had someone cheat on you.
Miss someone right now.*
Taken painkillers when you didn't need them.*
Smoked weed.
Snorted cocaine.
Ate shrooms.
Done dope.
Popped E.
Inhailed Nitrous.
Been in love.*
Cheated in a relationship.
Woke up crying.*
Cried yourself to sleep.*
Peed from laughing.
Had sex.*
Had sex in a car.*
Had sex in public.
Had sex in the shower.
Had sex in a sibling's bed.
Had sex in a parent's bed.
Read the answers of the person who sent this to you.*
My answers are totaly honest.*

diamond_life @ 2005-01-28T11:24:00

2005-01-28T16:29:05Z

Semester over, officially. *happy sigh*

Me, I'm just counting the hours till rehearsal again.

Oh, and I have the coolness and cool-osity of my background for February. I think I might stick with Lola for a while. Run, Lola Run was one of the best foreign films I've seen in a long time. And yet everyone I ask about it all scratch their heads in confusion, except for one person...and that's because he's foreign. I almost wish I would have talked to him about it more (both of us thinking the movie was j'awesone), but today being the last day of the semester...gah.

All I pine for is a little intellectual conversation. For FIVE BLOODY MINUTES.

gtg...I shouldn't even be here.

diamond_life @ 2005-01-27T10:25:00

2005-01-27T15:25:55Z

Which Survivor of the Impending Nuclear Apocalypse Are You?
A Rum and Monkey joint.

end-of-semester ponderings

2005-01-27T15:10:45Z

Stay strong. Don't cry...whatever you do...don't...

WAAAAHHHH!!!! I'M GOING TO MISS THEATER ARTS SO MUCH!!!

We were like a family, all of us. A dysfunctional family, sure, but the six of us were close. Even though we're all involved in the musical, and we're going to see each other every day after school, it just won't be the same... And Megill. I don't think I ever had a teacher that helped me along more than him.

When the bell rang, it was just sad. We were all about to burst out...yes, even you Kenny. Huge group hug...and then it was over. *sigh*

As for gym, that's another story. No more required physical education!! Woohoo! I'm supposed to be there right now, but under the circumstances (as in, I attempted to get out of it and succeeded) I'm in the library.

Has anyone ever seen Run Lola Run? Great indie film.

And...errr....

I'm glad I'm sitting alone. Yesterday I was typing in my Groupwise password, and I swear, the girl sitting next to me was looking straight at the keys. I changed it just now. One can never be too cautious.

Snitchseeker.com isn't working, which is really a shame...I was just getting people fired up for my forum again. Damn it...and I'll probably be online this afternoon. Just wanted to...yeah...let you...know...

teehee

2005-01-20T15:45:25Z

You scored as Mindfuck. Congratulations, you scored Mindfuck. You've probably seen a lot of movies, and have grown to hate mainstream shit. You're looking for the movie that will leave you breathless, and with 21 questions to think about. Check out: Donnie Darko, Being John Malkovich, Pulp Fiction, Memento.

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Mindfuck

95%

Artistic

85%

Sci-Fi/Fantasy

70%

Drama/Suspense

70%

Romantic Comedy

65%

Sadistic Humour

55%

Mindless Action Flick

55%

Movie Recommendation.
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The plays are so close that they're tomorrow morning at 7:45 am. Now THAT'S a mindfuck.

gee...it's my life

2005-01-19T16:23:16Z

What sign of the Zodiac am I?

Scorpio	86 %
Sagittarius	86 %
Aquarius	80 %
Virgo	73 %
Taurus	66 %
Pisces	66 %
Aries	66 %
Capricorn	60 %
Cancer	60 %
Gemini	60 %
Leo	60 %
Libra	53 %

Take the Zodiac test here!

I detest that. I am NOT a Sag.
I don't know why it would be such a big deal with me but...
Anyway...
Things are going better today. I just feel a bit...jaded....I dunno. Tomorrow, I promise, I will go through every friend's journal to see that all is well with everyone. Once again, I apologize. I'll make it up to you all. I'll comment so many times you'd think I was STALKING you. o_O

Oh, and bayliss! I got your postcard. White Horses! Thanks! *waves it wildly in the air*

It's funny how I find myself
In love with you
If I could buy my reasoning
I'd pay to lose
One half won't do

I've asked myself
How much do you
Commit yourself?

It's my life
Don't you forget
It's my life
It never ends (It never ends...)

Funny how I blind myself
I never knew
If I was sometimes played upon
Afraid to lose

Oh, I'd tell myself
What good do you do
Convince myself

Oh, It's my life
Don't you forget
Oh, It's my life
It never ends (It never ends...)

And I've asked myself
How much do you
Commit yourself?

It's my life
Don't you forget
Caught in the crowd
It never ends (its my life)

It's my life
Don't you forget
Caught in the crowd
It never ends (It never ends)

Oh, It's my life... (oh its my life)
Don't you forget... (don't you forget)
Caught in the crowd... (caught in the crowd)
It never ends (it never ends...)

diamond_life @ 2005-01-18T16:55:00

2005-01-18T21:58:06Z

Oh, and by the way, everyone....check out the background and the font color. What do you think? Go well? Comment here puppies @}~

PS: I aplogize, I haven't been reading my Friendslist lately. Just incredibly busy. You understand right?

I'm lying. I'm not that busy. There is no excuse for my bad behavior. I deserve to be punished. *pouts*

PLAY WEEK!!!!!!!!

2005-01-18T16:24:40Z

This week's the week of the plays, which we've been working on SO hard for months and months. Saturday at 7:30! I'm a bit put out though. None of my family will be able to make it. Mum and Dad have this fancy dinner party they're attending in upstate New York. Alyssa has work, Avery has work, and the other kids...well, they're too young to understand the plays anyway.

Wait a second....

I wonder whos watching the kids. If everyone has things to do, the kids can't be by themselves in the house all alone. We don't have a babysitter. I'm usually the babysitter.

Oh...I can see this exploding right in everyone's face (as things like this usually do).

I'll try to remember to hold a conference-whatsit, but in the meantime...let's all have a moment of silence, won't we. What happened this weekend on Livejournal will go down in history as just...one of those things where you'll forever remember where you were and what you were doing in that moment. The question is: how did YOU survive the LJ Outage of 2005?

The Great LiveJournal
Outage of 2005

During the outage I discovered this thing called a pencil that can write in this thing called a notebook.

What did you do?

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diamond_life @ 2005-01-18T11:02:00

2005-01-18T16:02:34Z

You scored as Druid Fairy. Your heart belongs to nature. Your green satin hides you in the brush. You influence plants to grow, and you have a special connection to animals.

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Druid Fairy

83%

Ethereal Priestess Fairy

75%

Raven Fairy

75%

Pixie

73%

Autumn Fairy

69%

Twilight Mistress Fairy

67%

Goddess of the Golden Dawn

67%

Rose Thorn Fairy

60%

Snow Fairy

48%

Which Firefly-Path Fairy are you?
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diamond_life @ 2005-01-14T07:26:00

2005-01-14T12:30:30Z

Yesterday was wonderful. The windows were wide open in my room to the unseasonal warm, springlike breeze. I was drinking Chai Latte on my bed and reading the Entertainment section of the newspaper. It felt as if the warm weather had come early. Absolutely wonderful.

Play's next Friday. Nervous? Not by a long shot. *confidence*

diamond_life @ 2005-01-12T13:34:00

2005-01-12T18:34:53Z

You Are 21 Years Old

21

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

This means I should be able to do anything a 21-year-old can do. Legally.

diamond_life @ 2005-01-12T07:32:00

2005-01-12T12:33:14Z

Hippies hippies
In the 1960s
Hippies hippies
In the 1960s
Communal living
Free love and peace
In the war down in ‘Nam
We want killing to cease

Love is all you need
Love is all you need

Marijuana
To expand our minds
And see this cruel world
Through a wise person’s eyes

We don’t care
It helps you grow
Lifts you up
And lets you go

Tired of conformity
The oppressive society
Are you ready to change your ways
Till America sees better days?

Let’s go barefoot and grow our hair
Who says that couples come in pairs?
We’ll dance like children of the flowers
And let this music be our bowers

Hippies hippies
In the 1960s
Iconoclast
It just didn’t last

The very Man they protested away
Is the same Man they’re working for today

Better to burn out
Then to fade away

So why’d you choose
To fade away?…

diamond_life @ 2005-01-11T14:34:00

2005-01-11T19:37:52Z

Introducing my Icons Animated phase!!!

I'm a bit angry and such. One of my group members, who will not be named here, wants to put another movie as our clip for the project. I want to do a certain other one. Both are completely appropriate. So why...? Oh, so angry.

Can't type anymore.

hey hey my my

2005-01-10T16:31:59Z

Oh, oh. I've got the *dreaded* DECADES PROJECT to do, the so-called "biggest report of my high school career." Meh, that doesn't scare me...lol.

The only problem is that I'm doing my project with like the hugest slacker in the class. *not going to name names*

I'm doing it on the sixties, though that wasn't my initial choice. My partner wanted to do it. It's all right, I suppose, just so much work. So much, you start to wonder if it's all necessary and meaningful and you go in a trance and get all thoughtful about it.

And then you realize you've lost your floppy disk which contains the most important information, and you start to run around and go crazy looking for it.

That's usually my method of doing projects. *shifty*

diamond_life @ 2005-01-07T07:14:00

2005-01-07T12:14:43Z

Christian Bale is SEX

yummy

diamond_life @ 2005-01-06T13:58:00

2005-01-06T19:09:00Z

Hi guys. *waves*

I'm in a good mood, besides the almost unbearable loss in volleyball. I love the sport. If there was such a major...*sigh*
Anyway, there's nothing like serving.
Or setting.
Or spiking. *adds "spiking" to Interests list*

Another dreary day. Ironically, today we're learning to dance to the song "Rain" in the musical. The choreographer's arriving around 2:30, I guess. She's lovely.

I'm nearly at the end of my rope, by the way. It's slightly stressing to get home exhausted at 6:30 after dancing for hours, then having to clean the house and feed and bathe the kids, then having a few minutes to finish homework and wrap it up before I fall among my covers, utterly spent. I have to do this every day for the next three months.

Oh, well. It's what I signed up for. Bring on the challenge! *cheerful*

Time to go to rehearsal.
Asaka grow me a garden, please Agwe don't flood my garden, Erzulie who will my love be, Papa Ge don't come around me...

BUNNY FUN!

2005-01-06T12:07:43Z

I'm calm now.

2005-01-05T23:55:50Z

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
The tension is here
Between where you are and where you should be
Between how it is and how it could be, yeah...

OK, I'm much, much calmer now. ^_^ I'm determined to do something about it...I don't know WHAT, though. Perhaps they were right, and everything will work itself out.

strawberry ice cream or strawberry ice cream...I just can't decide!

2005-01-03T16:26:14Z

My father says I should major in English. My mother says I'm not that good in Theatre anyway. Even my Theater Arts teacher says that an AA in English will feed me later in life.

...theatre is my life, my passion. My dream. Should I give all that up just because there's not much of a career in it? I mean, OK, I'll admit, English is definitely not the worst choice. I'm really good at Lit. I've spoken English all my life. It'd be an easy ride for me.

But I want the challenge of acting and everything to do with it. Living my life that way would be far from easy, but I know if I could just stick with it...

Ah, the pros and cons of two bowls of strawberry ice cream, one that has more and one that's sweeter.

Oh, boy.

only the captain can honk the horn!

2005-01-03T12:09:05Z

Sheep.

How Would YOU Dominate the World?
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Hello, all. I hope a wonderful vacation was had by all of you.

Mine was really rather lovely.

*sigh*

5 Ossener Drive, Perrineville, NJ 08535

2004-12-23T12:15:22Z

He, LJ Friendslist, there's been an unfortunate change of events. I won't be online for the holidays.

SO. In advance, Happy Christmahanakwanzaaramawali. Happy Solstice/Yule.

Hey, bayliss, have fun abroad!

And if anyone wants to snail mail me (b/c I love recieving snail mail) my addy is in the title. ^^^^^^^

And flowers for everyone @}- @}- @}- @}- @}-

love and chocolate

2004-12-22T16:19:29Z

I only got about four hours of sleep last night. I woke up with a headache. I was sore from the physical exertion of musical rehearsal leaping, kicking and jumping.

Irritable at having to wait out in the cold.

etc.
etc.
etc.

But THIS MORNING, that all changed. Because I got this really great Christmas present from Kate (the Kangaroo, aka The Indestructible Peter Pan!!)

It was fudge. A delicious, homemade whatsit.

Oh my Goddess.

Which proves once and for all that chocolate is the one and only thing that humans cannot live without. I've done many experiments on this subject, very tedious. Any arguments? Comment plz.

I know everyone else put this on their LJs but...

2004-12-21T16:16:58Z

And we all thought we'd be stooping old ladies and men by the time Book Six came out.

But JK never disappoints us.

She knew how long we've been waiting and contemplating, pleading for the answers to ALL of our unanswered questions.

Will we ever see _______ again?

Who will _______ end up with?

And will _______ die?

This date is going to be the most anticipated of fans everywhere....

JULY 16TH, 2005. COMING SOON TO A BOOKSTORE NEAR THOU.